Conquer Fear

Do you stop & question why you do the things you do? I do. Maybe it's because parenting is a constant adjustment process for me. Maybe... I just have too much time on my hands. Maybe it's normal. I don't know. But I wonder why I do the things I do. Here's what I know-- When I became a mom, my life & heart changed. I knew that I always had to be the best stewards of them, some of my greatest gifts. So I've stuck by that & honored that to the best of my ability.

However, I know that sometimes I hide behind motherhood. I use it as a convenient excuse to not step out, not to take leaps, not to trust.

I also hide behind my inability... or what I perceive to be my inability.

But in reality, what stops me is not my life circumstance or my inability... it's fear. And mostly when I think of my fear it's two kinds of fear. Fear of failure and fear of rejection.

I've had a desire to be a musician for more 15 years. I can play guitar, piano, and I can sing. I write poetry and stories. I am more than capable. Yes my life circumstance does not always lend itself to a quiet mind or time to do my best, but it does allow me to do it. I can include them in the writing, in the process. I can work on it before they wake or during rest.

I do not need to let fear stop me any longer. Fear is a thorn in my side, always trippin me up. I am more than capable... I may not be good, but I need to give it a fair shot. FEAR shall not be mine.

I shall be know for my ability to trust... my refusal to listen to my comfortant, my inner voice... but to honor God by being who He made me to be-- a woman after Him, unafraid.